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One Sweet Love by Sara Bareilles

Wednesday, May 14, 2008, 7:25 PM
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Just about the time the shadows call,
I undress my mind and dare you to follow.
Paint a portrait of my mystery,
only close my eyes and you are here with me.
A nameless face to think I see
to sit and watch the waves with me, til they're gone.
A heart I swear I'd recognize is made out of my own devices
...could I be wrong?

Time that I've taken, I pray it's not wasted.
Have I already tasted my piece of one sweet love?

Sleepless nights you creep inside of me,
paint your shadows on the breath that we share.
You take more than just my sanity--
you take myr eason not to care.
No ordinary wings I'll need--
the sky itself will carry me back to you.

The things I dream that I can do,
I'd open up the moon for you...
Just come down soon.

Time that I've taken..I pray it's not wasted.
Have I already tasted my piece of one sweet love....

Ready and waiting for a heart worth the breaking.
But I'd settle for an honest mistake in the name of one sweet love.

Weave your shadows in the breath that we share

Savor the sorrow to soften the pain,
sip on the southern rain, as I do,
I don't look, don't touch, don't do anything,
but hope that there is a you.

The earth that is the space between,
I'd banish it from under me, to get to you.
Your unexpected love provides my solitary suicide…
oh I wish I knew...

The time that I've taken,
I pray it's not wasted.
Have I already tasted my piece of one sweet love?
Ready and waiting
for a heart worth the breaking..
But I'd settle for an honest mistake in the name of one sweet love.

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I'm loving Sara Bareilles' album atm, many thanks to Vee for getting it for my birthday :) One Sweet Love is one of my favourite songs. Make sure you check out her album, 'Little Voice'. It's owrth a listen!

I'm supposed to be typing up a speech due on Friday for English Advanced. It's based on Change and I have to relate it to not only Othello but to 2 other texts. I'm majorly confused but I'll manage somehow. I'm ever so grateful my teachers have decided to make the students say it in front of both English Adv classes *rolls eyes*. No, really, a major upside is that there is now a 1 in 60 chance of getting chosen randomly from a hat!


[Returns back to post 2 hours later]

I feeeeeeeeeeel sooooooooooo lazy! oeueowsuhweouthoue

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Breathe In, Breathe Out - Mat Kearney

Thursday, May 8, 2008, 11:22 PM
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Mood: Tired/ stressed/ crazy/ content
Music: 103.2 FM

Breathe in, breathe out,
Tell me all of your doubts,
& Everybody bleeds this way,
Just the same.

Breathe in, breathe out,
Move on and break down,
If everyone goes away i will stay.

We push and pull,
& I fall down sometimes,
I'm not letting go,
You hold the other line.

Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes.

Hold on hold tight,
From out of your sight,
If everything keeps moving on, moving on,
Hold on hold tight,
Make it through another night,
& everyday there comes a song with the dawn,
We push and pull and I fall down sometimes,
I'm not letting go,
You hold the other line.

Cause there is a light, in your eyes, in your eyes.
There is a light, in your eyes, in your eyes.

Breathe in, and breathe out.
Breathe in, and breathe out.
Breathe in, and breathe out.
Breathe in, and breathe out.

Look left look right,
To the moon in the night.
& everything under the stars is in your arms.

Cause there is a light, in your eyes in your eyes.
There is a light, in your eyes, in your eyes.
There is a light, in your eyes, in your eyes.
There is a light, in your eyes, in your eyes.
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Lovely song to listen to whilst hunching over in the computer seat, hoping your feet won't be swollen forever after 4.5 hours of chaotic shopping on a Thursday night.

Oh, but it definitely is Happy Hour right now :D Steen and I spotted Total Hottie in Woolworths twice before lining up for refreshments at Mac-donkey to end a tiring shopping spree. I was a customer behind from Steen, and when she turned around to face me after her purchase, she told me to 'look behind you (!!!)' in a hushed tone. I swung around like a blind bat and saw nothing of particular interest. She told me to try looking behind the person behind me and there he was!!! 'Total hottie'!!!!! I, being the ever so subtle character that I am, squealed and faced back to the front sharply. *Phew* Close call. I bought a frozen Coke then left the line, sad that I was a customer away from Total Hottie. I reluctantly dragged my feet across the food court then decided to turn around for one last look and ..he was looking back at me. *Faints!* I screamed then pushed my trolley full of party supplies towards the entrance of Liverpool Westfields. Steen laughed then looked back at him and screamed also. He was still looking!!! We lingered metres away from the entrance, hoping to sneak more peeks at himw ithout him noticing. Ahhhh!

Haha, I was calling it "Happy Hour" because at Little Hong Kong (asian food joint) has 'Happy Hour' around 4-5pm where all the food is like, $2-3 per take away box. Now it's been 2 hours after that incident and it's still Happy Hour! He was soooo stalking us. It's like, fate. Seeing him unintentionally isn't good enough for you? How about seeing the number plate 'BBY 467' while talking about him? EH? Enough destiny for you?

Lesson learnt: The more you want something (a la boypren), the less likely it will come. Therefore, the act of 'letting go' of petty needs somehow draws them to you. Unneccessarily, but conveniently :) I.e. after feeling battered and lethargic, seeing Total Hotties is literally a sight for sore eyes and a sensation for sore everything!

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It's in the ABC of growing up.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008, 6:34 PM
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Song of the day/ week/ moment: Speeding Cars by Imogen Heap.

Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don’t feed me violence, just run with me
Through rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts, the cheating lovers
The coffee’s never strong enough
I know you think it’s more than just bad luck

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

Sleeping pills, no sleeping dogs lie never
Far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I’ve watched you slowly winding down for years
You can’t keep on like this
Now is as bad of time as any

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It was a long time ago

It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It was a long time ago

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

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Personally, I don't relate to this song in a bf/gf sort of way. I think this song is more of a conversation with a best friend who is in need and the singer is reassuring them that it's okay, life has it's ups and downs and that they love them anyway. Whatever the friend feels bad about, it's 'okay by me'. So just a nice little shout out to the dearly beloved;

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah


I love you all like no tomorrow. Thank you for the birthday wishes, they mean more to me than any material present in the world. Thank you for good times and bad times we've shared; the good have definitely out weighed the bad. I have grown so much with your love and support. I thank God for putting me on this earth so I could experience the richness of friendship. Either I'm having a bad case of lethologica or there really aren't any better words to express my gratitude other than Thank You.

What else have I learnt today? That no matter what age you turn, you'll never feel any different!! I'm 16 and I still feel like I'm 8. Ha. Oh and hugs are totally underrated. Give someone a hug now!


You know I love you,
xoxo.

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Get what you want but not what you need.

Saturday, April 5, 2008, 11:09 PM
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Nude by Radiohead


Don't get any big ideas
They're not going to happen
You paint yourself white and fill the noise
But there'll be something missing

And now that you found it, it's gone
Now that you feel it, you don't
You've gone off the rails

Don't get any big ideas
They're not going to happen
You'll go to hell for what your dirty mind is thinking

And now that you found it, it's gone
And now that you feel it, you don't
You've gone off the rails

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Bubbly by Colbie Caillat

Saturday, March 29, 2008, 4:09 PM
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I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place

And it starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And they start in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go
wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while
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What a cute song, yeah?

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Michael Cera? HelloOo ;)

Thursday, March 20, 2008, 3:48 PM
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Yesssssssssssss. I finished that report I was whinging about. Like, today o__o I totally didn't do anything yesterday, had no motivation! So when I finished, I was pretty pleased. I was going to post it up for you stalkers to read but I decided not to. (I gotta get my marks back before its safe to post!) It only took me 2 hours to do after finding motivation from thin air (at 9am in the morning). I stayed home like a sucker, pulled a really bad fake sickie.

Me: *Grabs stomach* Owwwww... I have a stomach acheeee.
Dad: *Looks back to my brother in his sports uniform* Okay, I get it. You don't want to run the Cross Country today.
Me: Uh.. yeah. That.

I bludged until 9am then had that motivation spark and finished at 11am. Told my dad to hand it in to the office for me (yeah, yeah, that assessment manual said NOT to do that). I sure hope he didn't act Asian and just leave it on the counter.

Not only did I manage to do a 6 week report in 2 hours, I cleaned my room (and the whole entire house for that matter), done other chores then decided to go bike riding.

Bike riding is soooo in ;) (Says who? Says me!)

I biked for an incredible 1 hour and took the bike trail near my house. At that time I totally forgot that it was the same trail my schools Cross Country was running! Silly me went bike riding the day the school had Cross Country at the hottest hour of the day. Freaking 2pm.

On top of that, the year that was running at that time was my year. So all these people in my grade saw me bike riding. I hope they think bike riding is cool. No wait, I hope not. The dorkier the situation, the more Michael Cera I become.


He is so adorkable. He's the epitome of awkward situations. This is shamelessly ripped off from Girlfriend magazine but its a really good example of a Michael Cera situation: Seeing someone you know a few metres away, making eye contact, looking down, not knowing whether or not you know them well enough to wave Hello. So you don't.

Oh and, I don't buy Girlfriend. My friend does 8-)

Whenever I ride my bike, I listen to this rad radio station FBI, 94.5FM. It's an independent Sydney-based station and has the best music evurrrr. I don't really have the time to sit down with my pen and paper out to note songs and stuff, but today on the way home I was listening to this song. The lyrics totally grabbed me. It was Moving To New York by The Wombats:


I've just had the craziest week
Like a party bag of lies, booze and then deceit
And I don't know why I want to voice this out loud
It's therapeutic somehow

So like, I've heard of The Wombats but I didn't really take notice of them. The first song I heard from them was Kill The Director. That song is fantastic also but the beat of the song turned me off the first listen. I don't know why because now that I listen to it, I think it's quite catchy. Esp. the Bridget Jones part. The lyrics are cute and relate-able.

I've met someone that makes me feel seasick
Oh what a skill to have
Oh what a skill to have

The lead singer sounds a bit like Kele Okereke of Bloc Party. Both songs are worth listening to and over analysing so check em outttt!

*Clears throat* So it's come to my attention that some people don't like my blog. (Refer to poll on side bar). Why not? Actually, why didn't you guys leave a comment or something so I at least know why my blog isn't your 'thang'. I'm not saying I'll change my blog just to suit your needs but like.. yeah. I totally asked for it, didn't I? By putting that poll up. Oh, wretched me.

Hmm, my face is red like a tomato. Sunscreen does not do me justice!!!! And I'm not really a hat person =/ Even though I keep saying how much I want the school's latest uniform addition, the bucket hat. Ha. It's just cute, okay? Like, dorky cute. Like Michael Cera cute. Like [insert stalkees name] cute - the one who carries around Christmas shopping bags. Oh, have I told you that he's got another one? It's a pretty blue colour :) He's so fashionable.



What was I on about? I need to chill to LazyTown~!~!~! (ABC1, 4:10pm weekdays).

(LOL! Is that guy for-realzzzzz? You gotta watch it, the guy is so plastic. In both senses too. He's the evil guy in the show. Gosh, his face is evil!)


You know you love me,
xoxo

iTunes playlist: Kill The Director by The Wombats; Moving To New York by The Wombats; Kissing Song by Dawn Landes; No Party by New Buffalo

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You want three wishes.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008, 11:34 PM
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Three Wishes by The Pierces

We'd be so less fragile
If we're made from metal
And our hearts from iron
And our minds from steel
If we built an armour
For our tender bodies
Could we love each other
Would we strive to feel

And you want three wishes:
One to fly the heavens
One to swim like fishes
And then one you're saving for a rainy day**
If your lover ever takes her love away

You say you want to know her like a lover
And undo her damage, she'll be new again
Soon you'll find that if you try to save her
It renews her anger
You will never win

And you want three wishes:
You want never bitter
And all delicious
And then one you're saving for a rainy day**
If your lover ever takes her love away

You want three wishes:
One to fly the heavens
One to swim like fishes
You want never bitter
And all delicious
And a clean conscience
And all it's blisses
You want one true lover with a thousand kisses
You want soft and gentle and never vicious
And then one you're saving for a rainy day
If your lover ever takes her love away


I always thought people were stupid for not wishing for a million other wishes with one of their initial three wishes. But then again, that totally defeats the purpose of having three wishes to start with. What you wish for reflects your values and standards, and your top 3 wishes show what you value most. Wishing for a gazillion other wishes would reflect one's own greedy nature, aye?

But seriously, I have a 4 page report for CAFS due on Thurs and I'm nowhere near finished :( I wish I was more studious and more of a geek people saw me as. Oh, but some don't see me as a geek 8-) Hope that someone is reading this or else I'll just sound totally big headed.

You'd expect girls in Teen Pageants to wish for world peace or just peace in general. Pop quiz: How would we know we were at peace if we were always at peace? Without some sort of war we'd be completely oblivious to the state we live in. How do we know what peace is like? By seeing all the devastation and terror in the news, hearing about it from a friend, experiencing it. After that, we know peace is the exact opposite. So no, I wouldn't be wishing for world peace. That's not something us humans are capable of sustaining over a long period of time. Not on Earth, anyways. I believe I will find eternal bliss and be at peace once I'm in Heaven, given that I be a good girl :)

So if I don't wish for peace, what else could I wish for? I read another interesting article in CAFS the other day, it was based on communication between males and females, particularly couples. They say what men want the most is to be loved whereas women want to be understood. Understood. Totally. Deffie. Agreed. Not that women don't want to be loved but heck, you gotta understand us to love us as well. Wouldn't you men just love to somehow comprehend a fifth of our actions? Okay, that's a double-edged sword. The life and times of a female tween is particularly difficult to experience itself. Understanding it could be tough but it'd allow you to understand the woman behind the chaos and all. So my wish to be understood would give me a peace of mind. It'd be amazing to find someone who understood me since I don't even understand myself some days.

So Jenny, you're down to your last wish. What ever could it be? I could save it for a rainy day** (song reference), but you know me, I splurge. I'm the suckkiest saver evurrrr! Quitter, sucks at saving. There's a correlation (!) I could stick to the oh-so-cliche wish to 'find love' but from wish-speak literally translated to English, that means: I want to open my eyes.

Oh, don't you get it?! Love is everywhere. From your mother's sweat to your existing friendships to a stranger's kindness - they're signs of their love for you. So open your eyes. Ever sat and wondered why your mum bothers cooking for your family, why the heck she spends all her time cleaning? Why do you have friends? (No, really). They love you, right? They're not just people who hang around 'just because'. They value your friendship and acknowledge your importance. By "a stranger's kindness", I don't imply stalkerish love but their simple act of common courtesy surely cannot be out of hate. I don't mean full-romance love either. There are many different types of love, but that's another entry.

I think I'd save my last wish, for now. I should go to sleep earlier tonight, goodness, I've been going to bed at like, 2am on a regular basis. UNHEALTHY!!!! Not only is it unhealthy, but I need sleep if I'm gonna wake up 10 minutes earlier tomorrow morning. I'm usually arriving to school on the bell or late but tomorrow I gotta hand in my Biology excursion note in the morning. Yes, the excursion is tomorrow. Yes, it's that wonderful journey to the creek I was talking about in a previous post. Yes, I'm super excited (!) NB: For all you n00bs, (!) is an indication of sarcasm.

Huzzah, 5 periods of creek watching awaits.

You know you love me,
xoxo

iTunes playlist: The Pierces. (I'm getting so lazy that I'm not bothered to organise a playlist on iTunes anymore. I just click on an artist and that's it. Zzz)

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One More With Feeling

Saturday, March 15, 2008, 2:34 PM
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Don't let the people make you think that just because you're young you're useless
You know it's not naive to think that you can change the things around
and that no man is an island

For I'd rather be a pebble in an ocean vast and drown alone
Than make no sound

Ahhh shoot. I should be like, doing chores then getting ready to go to bowling with friends. Yet I'm here, in front of my computer. Blogging. Yeah, I'm blogging so you guys know I'm still alive :)

Mental block. Mental block. Mental block

Oh right, I wanted to quote this quote before.

Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery. - Charles Caleb Colton.

I'm currently reading Double Cross by James Patterson. (Y'know, that guy who wrote the Women's Murder Club Series and Kiss The Girls.) It's freaking good, If you're itno suspensefull thriller books then James Patterson is your guy. That quote was mentioned because it's based on this psychopath who loves audiences for his killings and as you all know (or not), killers always have copycats.

Remember those Primary days when we'd be bitching with our friends about that girl whos always following us or copying the words we say or the things we bought at the canteen or that top we wore at Sandy's party?

Perhaps it still happens now.

Well, take it as a form of flattery my dear friends. When that person has the damn same haircut as you or when you started wearing fluoro green nail polish (FIRST!) or when you thought of this really cool line for your English essay but people rip it off you - it's all a compliment.

Gosh, it's almost 3pm. I should get going :s

I'll blog laterer. Erererer!


You know you love me (and miss me),
xoxo

iTunes playlist: One More With Feeling by Get Cape. Wear Cape. Fly; Calendar Girl by Stars; Star Guitar by The Chemical Brothers

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Oh, what good is it to live with nothing left to give.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008, 10:08 PM
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I know, I know - should be doing my English essay. Yet I have this massive urge to post these lyrics up. I'm always listening to music when I'm doing work and this song came on. It instantly grabbed my attention as I tuned into the lyrics. Highly recommended download :)


Swallowed In The Sea by Coldplay

You cut me down a tree and brought it back to me
And that's what made me see where I was going wrong
You put me on a shelf and kept me for yourself
I can only blame myself, you can only blame me

And I could write a song a hundred miles long
Well that's where I belong and you belong with me
And I could write it down or spread it all around
Get lost and then get found or swallowed in the sea

You put me on a line and hung me out to dry
Darling, that's when I decide to go see you
You cut me down to size and opened up my eyes
Made me realize what I could not see

And I could write a book, the one they'll say that shook the world
And then it took, it took it back from me
And I could write it down or spread it all around
Get lost and then get found and you'll come back to me
Not swallowed in the sea

And I could write a song a hundred miles long
Well, that's where I belong and you belong with me
The streets you’re walking on, a thousand houses long
Well, that's where I belong and you belong with me
Oh, what good is it to live with nothing left to give
Forget but not forgive, not loving all you see
Oh, the streets you’re walking on a thousand houses long
Well, that's where I belong and you belong with me
Not swallowed in the sea

You belong with me, not swallowed in the sea
Yeah, you belong with me
Not swallowed in the sea


Oh, stress stress stress. I shall be going to the library as much as I can tomorrow - during and after school. There was a brief talk about the state library today with Chris and Vee. They say inside its dead silent and has the perfect atmosphere to study in. I must nerd it out there one day!

Back to English essay I go :(

You know you love me,
xoxo

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I WANT TO GO AND PICK SOME OF THOSE WILD.. STRAWBERRIES!

Saturday, March 8, 2008, 10:41 PM
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If you were a true stalker, you would: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyKjaS3mn60


Yahhhh, it's not the usual sound I talk about but I did have this electronica phase. Full M.O.S everyday. That was weird.


I'm not really bothered to rant right now (yes, I have a life!!!), but there's something I wanted to point out - with the help of Robo's observance I fixed up my 'Wishlist' link found in my Profile so now you people know what to get for my birthday :) 1 month, 2 weeks and 6 days away!



Oh, you're welcome ;o

iTunes playlist: WILD.. STRAWBERRIES!!!!!!

You know you love me,
xoxo

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What gives, what helps? The Intuition.

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Feist has very good introspective music. So does Coldplay. And Death Cab. And Sufjan Stevens. And Aqualung.

.. Just in case you wondered why the heck I like them so much/ listen to them 24/7.

I'm quite an introspective being. To undergo introspection is to examine one's internal state, one's own mind, one's own feelings.

Maybe that's why I word vomit so much. I just have to say everything that I've thought of because there's so much on my mind. All the time.

And maybe that's why I like music so much. Because that's when I realise others feel the same way I feel and they express that feeling ever-so-melodic-ly.

Oh and, I just have a lot of feelings. Y'know? *Sniffs* I'm utterly emotional.

So what's on your mind, you ask? (Or you didn't really ask, I really don't care.) This question always overwhelms me because it just feels like theres so much to say and so little time. Or when I say it, it'll be old news. Or maybe that's when I realise theres not much to say. Sometimes its just one really 'small' thing, that is, just one thing, thats really bugging me.



So I reply, 'Oh.. nothing.'


Introspective music:


Feist -
Intuition
That's What I Say, Not What I Mean


Coldplay -
X&Y
For You
Your Love Means Everything Pt. 2



Death Cab For Cutie -
Brothers On A Hotel Bed,
Stable Song
A Lack Of Colour
Passenger Seat

Sufjan Stevens -
Concerning the UFO Sighting Near Highland, IL
Casimir Pulaski Day
We Won't Need Legs To Stand
The One I Love


Aqualung -
If I Fall
Extra Ordinary Thing
Strange & Beautiful (I'll Put A Spell On You)
Gentle


I know you love me,
xoxo

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I'm Heavily Broken sang The Veronicas.

Thursday, March 6, 2008, 6:33 PM
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Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care?
It's so unfair

Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken

And there's nothing I can do.


Live version highly recommended: http://youtube.com/watch?v=P1n6ZH2MWLY

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"I just want to be me, Eloise."

Saturday, March 1, 2008, 2:20 AM
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So like, I totally conformed and created a blog. It's like getting a bob these days. Everyone is starting to get one!

But I think blogs are benefitial. One is able to freely express their sentiments (exactly!) anonymously (by creating a pseudonym) but I chose not to. What you see is what you get here. A lot of people tend to hide who they really are either by faking their idenitity or faking their personality. It's living a lie. Why would you want to live a lie? I understand, maybe you have something you want to keep hidden away or you think something is totally shameful but it's who you are. Do you want to hide yourself? Are you ashamed of yourself?

Let me explain my blog title - it's from a show called 'Me, Eloise!'



Its this cartoon that is currently aired on ABC, at 3:55pm on weekdays. I started watching it a week ago. I have no idea why but as soon as I set eyes on the tv screen I was drawn to it. It was the protagonist. She is bright and fun and ridiculously spoilt, it was like watching a celebrity (in 2D). But unlike most celebrities, she is true to herself.

There was this one episode where Eloise decides to go to school (she usually has a tutor). Due to her bratty ways, her tutor resigned. The school is private of course and her teacher is 'rawther' strict. (Eloise likes to pronounce rather as 'rawther'.) After 2 days of school, Eloise has a mini-breakdown. Her friend, Bill tells her to cheer up and to stay strong and that its the real world. (When I said spoilt, I meant: She lives is a freaking 5 star hotel plaza and does whatever she wants all day.) Bill explains that school has rules that everyone has to follow in order to be good students. Eloise replied with,



"I just want to be me, Eloise."


It was cute. Cute as in: that kid just said something so innocent and so honest that it makes us adults go, "Whoah. I wish I thought like that." Reminds me of this quote made by a 7 year old girl:



Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt. And he wears it everyday.


So simple, so true. It's so innocent but it opens something inside of us. Our hearts. Our minds. We stop thinking so narrow mindedly, so structuredly, thinking the way we were taught to - for a second, at least.

But me? I don't think the way I used to. I'm saddened sometimes by the depth of knowledge I attain. Heck, I sometimes wished I was a sponge living in a pineapple. Though, I do learn everyday. I'm ignorant and intelligent at the same time. I know so much yet so little. The smartest people are those who know they know nothing.

So who am I? I'm someone who enjoys the innocence left in this world. I rawther enjoy witty banter. I dig the show Me, Eloise! I love music. Really. I really, really do. Music is a freaking art. (Actually, yeah, it is.) But I said that with a passion! Anyone who has the same music taste as me is my soul mate. Well, my soul mate would have to at least like the music I like, or introduce me to artists I wished I discovered first. Yeah, I like to fantasize about love and all that jazz.

Artists I love: Death Cab For Cutie, Coldplay, Aqualung, Feist, Sufjan Stevens, Kate Nash, Lily Allen, The Postal Service, The Hush Sound, Imogen Heap/ Frou Frou, The Perishers, New Buffalo, Brooke Fraser, Sarah Blasko, Zero 7/ Sia Furler, Phoenix, Goldfrapp, As Tall As Lions.

The rest, I usually dig a song or two by them. Goodness, if you love all the artists I just listed - you must add me on Facebook/MySpace/ Bebo. Ha.

But I'm not all about music. I'm an amateur guitarist and amateur x100 singer but that's not all me. I'm a devoted Christian, but I'm a sinner. I'm still trying to find myself, really. And tbh, I sometimes doubt if God is there. But it's nice to know there's someone watching over us. And that there is a purpose to life.


Regarding my character, I used to be really nice. People say I'm nice now but I have my days. And sometimes I say things I totally didn't mean e.g. Can I please have a chicken roll? *Dammit! I've never even tasted a chicken roll before. I actually wanted a chicken puff. What the heck?!* But seriously, sometimes I just totally put my foot in it. And then I go home, and think. And contemplate becoming mute. Or sometimes, someone else puts their foot in it and totally crush me. But I don't say anything.

You see, over time, I've coated my heart with cling wrap. With every negative experience, another layer is wrapped around my heart. You see, my heart is still there, the cling wrap doesn't hide it. It just protects it from stuff coming in. Oh, but cling wrap is thin. Beautiful moments slash open the wrap, moments like eye opening scenes in movies, like hearing sweet little sentences, like waking up and looking out the window, moments like ..life. In all its glory. And I cry. I cry after I witness something beautiful.

People say I cry a lot. Well heck, theres a whole lotta 'beautiful' in this world :)

'Beautiful moments' vary from person to person. It all comes down to perception. If you see life through rose coloured glasses, you're like me. I'm happy. I'm content. I don't expect much. Humility goes a long way too. But some days I'm the opposite to all of that.

I'm way temperamental.



In case you haven't noticed, I rant. I'm afraid the length of this entry would be a turn-off. So I'll end it just here.

Thank you for reading all the way up til now. You must care a lot about me or are horribly intrigued. Well there's a whole lot more where that came from.


You know you love me,
xoxo.

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