| So, I've been M.I.A for gosh knows how long but here's a neat vid. to explain what happened:



It's basically my life story. (At least for the past few months i.e. ever since I started this blog.)

I don't know what's gotten into me, I seriously don't feel like 'doing'. I just feel like 'being'. I haven't even written in my diary for a month. Tragic. I like to keep a diary because it's fun to read and reflect upon years later. That's kinda the same reason why I started a blog too. Only this web 'diary' isn't as personal since it's open for everyone to see. I wanted to document my thoughts and memories because I'll be able to tell how much I've grown/ changed/ matured - whatever.

What have I been up to? How am I feeling? What's happening to me? I wouldn't say I'm having a 'rough' time at the moment but it's definitely not something I want to get used to. But I'm glad to say that I've been more active lately, jumping around for some reason and started to write in my diary again :)

I had a weird dream yesterday. They say once your dreams are decoded, they reveal your subconscious thoughts, your deepest desires or your memories. How about your nightmares?

I'm at school (but the classroom setting was totally foreign to me. Never been in a class like it.) and we had to get out the newspapers to update ourselves on the world around us (by 'us' I mean my friends, but I've never even seen these people in real life before. I think.) The front page news was about a psychopath (who appears from oblivion), apparently having a list of people to kill and that I was on top of the list. I didn't know why I was on the list yet I was horrified and became very paranoid of windows, fearing the possibility of getting shot by the psychopath once he saw me. Throughout my dream, I'm ducking under windows, passing out and running. I was absolutely terrified 24/7. There was no resolution. I don't know how the nightmare ended. I just somehow switched to a different setting with a different atmosphere, hence another dream. Its strange how I only recall my nightmares, not my dreams.

My interpretation of that nightmare is that I'm afraid of something but I know it's something I can't avoid, it's inevitable. A problem, an issue. I don't know why it's happening but maybe that's why I'm so afraid. There's no resolution because I haven't tackled the problem yet. Hope I build a bridge soon or I'll be having nightmares for a while.

I should probably fill you stalkers in with what I've been doing all this time. So last time I blogged was 9th of April, during last week of school. I attended school the whole week, yes, including the Friday. All I remember from that week was the 'Yes' paper incident and that darned English listening exam I had on the Friday. It was the most discussed topic of the day.

That Saturday was Stephany's 16th party. It was a blassssssssssst darling, hope you read this. I want a fondue set for my birthday :) Or a karaoke machine. Oh and her cake was awesome, there was a picture of this busty blonde chick on her typical asian fruit cream cake.

Hot.

My group, L3 - Luscious Little Ladies, got her the traditional collage-of-photos-in-a-frame, a black quilted Lonsdale bag, a Bardot dress, Message In A Bottle (a movie based on a Nicholas Sparks novel of the same name), and a friendship quote book.

The birthday girl & I

The best L3 photo I could find.

My SYTYCD partner :)

The following week has been a total bludgeeeeeeeee and waste of my life! I done absolutely nothing on the first 2 days of my school holidays! It felt okay at the time but in retrospect I realise I could have used those 48 hours to study!

On Wednesday Aly, Helen, Ook and Robo decided to crash over my house for fun. We watched The Amityville Horror for the first 2 hours then laughed at my seriously embarrassingly asian dad the hour after. If 'embarrassing' were a noun, it would be my father. He decided to 'test' out my totally rusty karaoke machine by SINGING lame 90's music as he basked in the laughter of my tween friends. He must have confused it for approval or something. We decided to do some karaoke-ing of our own then had a sweet little d&m. It was mainly my life since everyone else refused to talk and I refused to not talk. It worked out well. The boys went home early because they're mummy's boys but the girls stayed to chat a while longer.

Helen, Robert, Jenny & Ook

Doesn't Queen 'Lobo' look fab here?

Oh, I should explain the whole Queen Lobo title. It all began when my 'embarrassing' aka 'father' asked the tweens what song requests they had for karaoke. Since no one could think of anything my dad asked if Lobo would be okay. Robert was alllllll for it. Hence the Lobo title. We decided to chuck 'Queen' in since he looks ever so posh in the photo above. 'Twas a fun day :D

The next day I went over to Row's house to start practicing our jazz dance routine for CCNF Awards '08. I'm pretty happy with how far we got, 1:15 worth! :) We cracked up so much when we first tried dancing. We then got totally exhausted after hours of dance so Row cooked me egg. Yeahhhhhhhhh :) She wanted to scramble it but I told her it's way nicer if it's not. So she done some weird flippy thing to it. We then retreated to her room, armed with chocolate biscuits and french fries and had a nice d&m. I left her house with a great amount of respect and appreciation for all those dancers out there. They are so underrated! The ability to move your body to form a 'move' is a great achievement within itself. To loose all your inhibitions and just dance to the beat is such a beautiful act. Which I could not comprehend before trying to do so myself. Much admiration to all you dancers out there! When I got home I still felt like twirling around, so I did. Wish I was a ballerina. I ended up exercising for 2 hours. Boo yah. All you really need to keep going is that little bit of effort to begin with!

And today, I felt sick in the morning so I couldn't go over to Bryan's to practice the group dance for Monday :( I rested as much as I could during the day, which was easy enough to do. Aly and Helen came over around 5 to prepare for band prac. Aly asked me to do that Grecian braid across the crown of her head since she was feeling that pre-formal fever. She also pointe dout how I'm always wearing black to band prac but I said it that it just so happens to always be freezing cold on Friday nights!!

Sang my lungs out then got home at 9:30pm, Judy was watching Sleepless In Seattle. Oh how I love that movie. If you are a hopeless romantic, this is the movie 'that started it all'. You know what the tag-line is? What if someone you never met, someone you never saw, someone you never knew was the only someone for you? *Heart melts* I love Meg Ryan's character, she is so stalkerish. She hears some guy talking about how much he loves his recently deceased wife and suddenly she falls head over heels for him and travels from Baltimore to Seattle to find him. Very sweet with a dash of 'what the'. But it still satisfies my appetite.


You know you totally still love me,
xoxo.

Labels: Health, Outings, Wants, Whinge

| I want freedom.

Labels: Wants

| I decided to make a new label, "Quotes". To make this new Label feel welcome, I'm going to quote some of my favourite quotes. Well, those that I manage to think of right now.

"How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd."- Alexander Pope

"There's beauty in the breakdown." - Frou Frou

"Happiness is not the absence of problems but the ability to deal with them." - Jack Brown

"Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it." - Swedish Proverb

"Things do not change, we change." - Henry David Thoreau

"Nobody ever died of laughter." - Max Beerbohm

"This one time she punched me in the face.. and it was awesome." - Desperate Wannabe from Mean Girls

Oh, and lolll. I could quote Mean Girls or Juno all dayyyyy!

Leah: Yo yo yoiggady yo!
Juno: I'm pregnant.
Leah: What? Honest to blog?
Juno: Yeah. It's Bleeker's.
Leah: It's probably just a food baby. Did you have a big lunch?
Juno: This is not a food baby all right? I've taken like three pregnancy tests, and I'm forshizz up the spout.
Leah: How did you even generate enough pee for three pregnancy tests?

I loved this scene esp. cos of the hamburger phone Juno used to call Leah with. It actually exists btw~! Exists here: http://www.uxcell.com/desktop-corded-hamburger-phone-telephone-like-the-movie-juno-yellow-p-2805.html

Argh, total want!!!!!111111oneoneoneone

Hmm, ran out of quotes (though I'm quite sure I've got waaay more). So over rover!

Labels: Quotes, Wants

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I always thought people were stupid for not wishing for a million other wishes with one of their initial three wishes. But then again, that totally defeats the purpose of having three wishes to start with. What you wish for reflects your values and standards, and your top 3 wishes show what you value most. Wishing for a gazillion other wishes would reflect one's own greedy nature, aye?

But seriously, I have a 4 page report for CAFS due on Thurs and I'm nowhere near finished :( I wish I was more studious and more of a geek people saw me as. Oh, but some don't see me as a geek 8-) Hope that someone is reading this or else I'll just sound totally big headed.

You'd expect girls in Teen Pageants to wish for world peace or just peace in general. Pop quiz: How would we know we were at peace if we were always at peace? Without some sort of war we'd be completely oblivious to the state we live in. How do we know what peace is like? By seeing all the devastation and terror in the news, hearing about it from a friend, experiencing it. After that, we know peace is the exact opposite. So no, I wouldn't be wishing for world peace. That's not something us humans are capable of sustaining over a long period of time. Not on Earth, anyways. I believe I will find eternal bliss and be at peace once I'm in Heaven, given that I be a good girl :)

So if I don't wish for peace, what else could I wish for? I read another interesting article in CAFS the other day, it was based on communication between males and females, particularly couples. They say what men want the most is to be loved whereas women want to be understood. Understood. Totally. Deffie. Agreed. Not that women don't want to be loved but heck, you gotta understand us to love us as well. Wouldn't you men just love to somehow comprehend a fifth of our actions? Okay, that's a double-edged sword. The life and times of a female tween is particularly difficult to experience itself. Understanding it could be tough but it'd allow you to understand the woman behind the chaos and all. So my wish to be understood would give me a peace of mind. It'd be amazing to find someone who understood me since I don't even understand myself some days.

So Jenny, you're down to your last wish. What ever could it be? I could save it for a rainy day** (song reference), but you know me, I splurge. I'm the suckkiest saver evurrrr! Quitter, sucks at saving. There's a correlation (!) I could stick to the oh-so-cliche wish to 'find love' but from wish-speak literally translated to English, that means: I want to open my eyes.

Oh, don't you get it?! Love is everywhere. From your mother's sweat to your existing friendships to a stranger's kindness - they're signs of their love for you. So open your eyes. Ever sat and wondered why your mum bothers cooking for your family, why the heck she spends all her time cleaning? Why do you have friends? (No, really). They love you, right? They're not just people who hang around 'just because'. They value your friendship and acknowledge your importance. By "a stranger's kindness", I don't imply stalkerish love but their simple act of common courtesy surely cannot be out of hate. I don't mean full-romance love either. There are many different types of love, but that's another entry.

I think I'd save my last wish, for now. I should go to sleep earlier tonight, goodness, I've been going to bed at like, 2am on a regular basis. UNHEALTHY!!!! Not only is it unhealthy, but I need sleep if I'm gonna wake up 10 minutes earlier tomorrow morning. I'm usually arriving to school on the bell or late but tomorrow I gotta hand in my Biology excursion note in the morning. Yes, the excursion is tomorrow. Yes, it's that wonderful journey to the creek I was talking about in a previous post. Yes, I'm super excited (!) NB: For all you n00bs, (!) is an indication of sarcasm.

Huzzah, 5 periods of creek watching awaits.

You know you love me,
xoxo

iTunes playlist: The Pierces. (I'm getting so lazy that I'm not bothered to organise a playlist on iTunes anymore. I just click on an artist and that's it. Zzz)

Labels: Music, Rant, Wants

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Oh, you're welcome ;o

iTunes playlist: WILD.. STRAWBERRIES!!!!!!

You know you love me,
xoxo

Labels: Music, Wants

| My day was pretty normal, I done nothing productive until 7pm. Every 2nd Saturday is a bible study at church and today we learnt about UFOs. Yes, completely relevant.

It's the first day of Winter! - I mean, Autumn. I'm such a ditz, thank goodness my friends pointed out the correct season or I would have been telling everyone it's the first day of Winter ;o

What I love most about Winter? Layering clothes! I love being able to pile on different colours/ textures/ patterns all in one outfit. I'm going to be hunting for:

those fitted, high-heeled ankle boots;


Rachel Bilson - also love her bright yellow scarf.

headbands;


Inspired by Blair Waldorf from Gossip Girl.

sheer tights;



sweaters 2 sizes too big & scarves;


from http://www.thesatorialist.blogspot.com/

items with funky patterns on them;


Matthew Williamson, SPRING/SUMMER 08

having one stand-out colour in every outfit;


Hilary Duff does yellow.

I would have posted this up 20 minutes ago if not for these 2 blogs: http://www.mahalofashion.blogspot.com/ and http://thesartorialist.blogspot.com/

Both worth a click! I'm going to go back to le staring of le photos on ze blogzzzz :)

Labels: Fashion, God, Wants