| So, I've been M.I.A for gosh knows how long but here's a neat vid. to explain what happened:



It's basically my life story. (At least for the past few months i.e. ever since I started this blog.)

I don't know what's gotten into me, I seriously don't feel like 'doing'. I just feel like 'being'. I haven't even written in my diary for a month. Tragic. I like to keep a diary because it's fun to read and reflect upon years later. That's kinda the same reason why I started a blog too. Only this web 'diary' isn't as personal since it's open for everyone to see. I wanted to document my thoughts and memories because I'll be able to tell how much I've grown/ changed/ matured - whatever.

What have I been up to? How am I feeling? What's happening to me? I wouldn't say I'm having a 'rough' time at the moment but it's definitely not something I want to get used to. But I'm glad to say that I've been more active lately, jumping around for some reason and started to write in my diary again :)

I had a weird dream yesterday. They say once your dreams are decoded, they reveal your subconscious thoughts, your deepest desires or your memories. How about your nightmares?

I'm at school (but the classroom setting was totally foreign to me. Never been in a class like it.) and we had to get out the newspapers to update ourselves on the world around us (by 'us' I mean my friends, but I've never even seen these people in real life before. I think.) The front page news was about a psychopath (who appears from oblivion), apparently having a list of people to kill and that I was on top of the list. I didn't know why I was on the list yet I was horrified and became very paranoid of windows, fearing the possibility of getting shot by the psychopath once he saw me. Throughout my dream, I'm ducking under windows, passing out and running. I was absolutely terrified 24/7. There was no resolution. I don't know how the nightmare ended. I just somehow switched to a different setting with a different atmosphere, hence another dream. Its strange how I only recall my nightmares, not my dreams.

My interpretation of that nightmare is that I'm afraid of something but I know it's something I can't avoid, it's inevitable. A problem, an issue. I don't know why it's happening but maybe that's why I'm so afraid. There's no resolution because I haven't tackled the problem yet. Hope I build a bridge soon or I'll be having nightmares for a while.

I should probably fill you stalkers in with what I've been doing all this time. So last time I blogged was 9th of April, during last week of school. I attended school the whole week, yes, including the Friday. All I remember from that week was the 'Yes' paper incident and that darned English listening exam I had on the Friday. It was the most discussed topic of the day.

That Saturday was Stephany's 16th party. It was a blassssssssssst darling, hope you read this. I want a fondue set for my birthday :) Or a karaoke machine. Oh and her cake was awesome, there was a picture of this busty blonde chick on her typical asian fruit cream cake.

Hot.

My group, L3 - Luscious Little Ladies, got her the traditional collage-of-photos-in-a-frame, a black quilted Lonsdale bag, a Bardot dress, Message In A Bottle (a movie based on a Nicholas Sparks novel of the same name), and a friendship quote book.

The birthday girl & I

The best L3 photo I could find.

My SYTYCD partner :)

The following week has been a total bludgeeeeeeeee and waste of my life! I done absolutely nothing on the first 2 days of my school holidays! It felt okay at the time but in retrospect I realise I could have used those 48 hours to study!

On Wednesday Aly, Helen, Ook and Robo decided to crash over my house for fun. We watched The Amityville Horror for the first 2 hours then laughed at my seriously embarrassingly asian dad the hour after. If 'embarrassing' were a noun, it would be my father. He decided to 'test' out my totally rusty karaoke machine by SINGING lame 90's music as he basked in the laughter of my tween friends. He must have confused it for approval or something. We decided to do some karaoke-ing of our own then had a sweet little d&m. It was mainly my life since everyone else refused to talk and I refused to not talk. It worked out well. The boys went home early because they're mummy's boys but the girls stayed to chat a while longer.

Helen, Robert, Jenny & Ook

Doesn't Queen 'Lobo' look fab here?

Oh, I should explain the whole Queen Lobo title. It all began when my 'embarrassing' aka 'father' asked the tweens what song requests they had for karaoke. Since no one could think of anything my dad asked if Lobo would be okay. Robert was alllllll for it. Hence the Lobo title. We decided to chuck 'Queen' in since he looks ever so posh in the photo above. 'Twas a fun day :D

The next day I went over to Row's house to start practicing our jazz dance routine for CCNF Awards '08. I'm pretty happy with how far we got, 1:15 worth! :) We cracked up so much when we first tried dancing. We then got totally exhausted after hours of dance so Row cooked me egg. Yeahhhhhhhhh :) She wanted to scramble it but I told her it's way nicer if it's not. So she done some weird flippy thing to it. We then retreated to her room, armed with chocolate biscuits and french fries and had a nice d&m. I left her house with a great amount of respect and appreciation for all those dancers out there. They are so underrated! The ability to move your body to form a 'move' is a great achievement within itself. To loose all your inhibitions and just dance to the beat is such a beautiful act. Which I could not comprehend before trying to do so myself. Much admiration to all you dancers out there! When I got home I still felt like twirling around, so I did. Wish I was a ballerina. I ended up exercising for 2 hours. Boo yah. All you really need to keep going is that little bit of effort to begin with!

And today, I felt sick in the morning so I couldn't go over to Bryan's to practice the group dance for Monday :( I rested as much as I could during the day, which was easy enough to do. Aly and Helen came over around 5 to prepare for band prac. Aly asked me to do that Grecian braid across the crown of her head since she was feeling that pre-formal fever. She also pointe dout how I'm always wearing black to band prac but I said it that it just so happens to always be freezing cold on Friday nights!!

Sang my lungs out then got home at 9:30pm, Judy was watching Sleepless In Seattle. Oh how I love that movie. If you are a hopeless romantic, this is the movie 'that started it all'. You know what the tag-line is? What if someone you never met, someone you never saw, someone you never knew was the only someone for you? *Heart melts* I love Meg Ryan's character, she is so stalkerish. She hears some guy talking about how much he loves his recently deceased wife and suddenly she falls head over heels for him and travels from Baltimore to Seattle to find him. Very sweet with a dash of 'what the'. But it still satisfies my appetite.


You know you totally still love me,
xoxo.

Labels: Health, Outings, Wants, Whinge

| I've been doing nothing (literally) until now. Woke up at 12pm and stayed in bed til 1pm, then I wasted an hour on the Hoyts website browsing through this year's upcoming movies and reading their synopsis'. There's a lot of variety this year, and they don't all look crummy :) Can't wait til the April holidays! I'm liking the looks of Prom Night, Paris, Smart People & The Painted Veil (out of the April releases)

I've been in a stalkerish mood for the past 2 days, just yesterday I browsed through all my previous Bebo comments, trying to get to my first ever comment. It didn't work out. I think there's like, a comment storage limit or something :"( The last comment I found was made 2 years ago! I'm pretty sure I made Bebo 3 years ago. Anyways, as I was on my quest for the 1st Bebo comment ever made, I started to read some of the comments I've received. Judging by the most earliest ones, I was one weird kid in Year 8.

I feel a rant coming up but I've got time constraints - I gotta get ready for LURM aka Leave UR Mumma @ home night (creative, aye?. It's a monthly youth night, open for Christians and non-Christians a like, where we all get to play games and have a mini sermon in between :) Each LURM has a theme (well, the past 3 had themes) and this month's theme is Pirates. Arr. I shall promote it after I get home tonight :D Here's some pretty posters for you to stare at:





You know you love me,
xoxo

Labels: God, Outings

| Okay. I feel better now. Ah, I feel so up and down all the time.

I had an okay day today. You know how I said I was getting ready for bowling with friends? (Refer to previous post). Yeah, scrap that. I was on the way to AMF ffld when Helen, or rather, Thuy on Helen's phone called me and said that there was some team playing there and that there were no lanes left. OUHFOS! So I told my dad to stop driving even though we were on Cumberland Hwy. After lots of frustrating "WHATTT?"s we resorted to movies @ Stockies. Which consequently was the same place Thanh's birthday thang was held at. It was a lol situation. That is, lol at me for acting dog at Thanh's party for Helen's and now they're held at the same place. I saw Kathy and Andy first, then Jenny L and Fong. There was lots of o__o whatchu doing here?! so I decided to back into the cinemas.

I was staring at the movie title screen and gosh, crap-o-mania. None of the seemingly good movies were out yet (The Black Balloon, Hey Hey It's Esther Blueburger) and Helen wasn't crazy over The Other Boleyn Girl either. We settled with Jumper and I spent a ridiculous $10.59 on a medium combo (popcorn/ frozen coke) to share amongst my friends.

The theatre was virtually empty when the party gang walked in. Totally fine by me :D Thuy explained that Jumper was old by now. Say what? I just heard a review about it 2 weeks ago! Okay, that's old. I started to get comfortable (***LOL - inside joke) when these girls walked in, laughing their asses off. I ignored it since it was only the ads rolling and they just entered so, whatever. They started to really bug me when they were just constantly chattering, even after the movie started. Aly and Thuy weren't back from their food hunt yet (since the food at the cinema was $$$$$ and they were $) so when they did come back, Thuy was in an absolute hurry and suddenly tripped. It was sooo not funny yet the girls instantly cracked up. I was furious. Should have chucked my popcorn at them!

Nherh, so the kitten has claws.

Thankfully, the queen bee of the group left the cinema for some reason (good riddance!) and so the wannabes left. (Based on Aly's observations.)

Jumper was a reasonably good movie. Zomgggg, the main guy was so cute! Both the actors who portrayed him when he was young and older. Ahhhh :) No wonder Rachel Bilson is dating the older 'him' - Hayden Christensen. She was gorgeous in the movie, as ever. I really wished they put more work into the ending, though. It was kinda dull. Shouldn't be spoiling it for you guys so just watch it! Its still worth a watch despite the blah ending.

We walked out the theatre at around 7ish, excitedly exchanged reviews and went to pee. I saw Heaven holding a palette of cupcakes (which was Thanh's cake) as we walked out of the cinema. I really liked her dress, it was light pink with large black leopard print. I also liked Kathy's dress today, it was aqua-blue with a feather-shaped pattern. Thuy, Aly, Tramanh and I kept Heaven company as we waited for Thanh and co to finish up at the restaurant. As a gang of asians (and non asians) started coming towards us, Heaven hid behind Steph before we all shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY! to Thanh. Thuy & I said our 'Hi!'s and had our chit chats before Thuy's dad came to pick us up. The gang were singing Happy Birthday to Thanh really loudly when I walked back to Thuy's car. Thanh has a pretty good turn-up to his 16th party, even without me attending. Hope it was fully sweet Thanh, you bloody rangaaaaaaa :D As I'm on a birthday roll, Happy 16th to you too Helen! :)

Helen wasn't able to hold a get together at her house after movies today since we had Bible Study on. (The 'get together' is after Church tomorrow - I'll have photos up soon!) As Thuy's car moved down towards the church entrance, I didn't see anyone inside. Hmm. Helen approached us and told us that practically no one decided to show up. Pastor Dom was sitting alone before Helen, Simon, my brother and my sister turned up. I was shocked, was it really that bad?

I got out of the car, said 'thu' (someone Viet tell me I spelt that right =s) to Thuy's dad and skipidee deed to Helen. Pastor Dom was slumped in his seat at the corner of the room and I could tell he was disappointed. I tried cheering him up with a bright 'Hello!' but he just managed a weak smile. *Sigh*

We decided to start the study when no one showed after 15 minutes of waiting for any late-comers. The study was on the Holy Spirit. It was fairly nice, I learnt a few things. The Holy Spirit is of course, God, as one of the Trinity. It teaches us, leads us, speaks to us and comforts us. Helen asked if the Holy Spirit was 'that voice inside your head'. Pastor Dom replied with, No, that's our conscience. But the Holy Spirit does affect it. All Christians have the Holy Spirit in their lives, which is logical since the Holy Spirit is God. I learnt that the Holy Spirit is in my life (and every other Christian's life) because it teaches me and guides me so that my transformations may glorify and honour God. But isn't the Holy Spirit God anyways? Yeah.. that can be confusing. In fact, I just confused myself by adding in that question. Gosh, this just supports the fact that the more you know, the more questions you have.

Ah, I have to get up earlier than usual because Church starts at 10am tomorrow :s The youth now have Sunday School!!!111oneone (As in, another bible study, quizzes included.) Hooray for those permanent bags/suitcases under my eyes. I hold this belief that I was born with eye bags. I do not recall a time that I woke up without them. Oh wretched internet!

Yeah, you could say church takes over my life but I say, church is life! God is life :)


You know you love me,
xoxo

iTunes playlist: X&Y by Coldplay; Pretty Eyes by Jasoon Reeves; Mad World by Gary Jules; Scarlet by Brooke Fraser.

Labels: God, Outings